First Thought, Best Thought

I’m a blog novice. I’ve read a few, but never written anything until just now. As a writer, the thing I struggle with is Fear in many of its (probably infinite) guises. When I look closely, all of my other struggles in life are actually all about fear: fear of criticism, fear of failure, fear of success, fear of getting in trouble, fear of people saying mean things to me. These fears slow my writing progress as they move into my writing studio and bring along friends (Distraction, Procrastination, Obligation) and set up large encampments where other fears can breed. I’m hoping that the spontaneous nature of blogs will diminish the presence of these fears and reduce the illusory importance of the written word. After all, it’s only writing.

Jerry Colonna’s blog, in particular, has inspired me to be brave about just putting it out there. I don’t know Jerry very well, but feel that I know him better after I read what he writes. One of my biggest writing guides, Natalie Goldberg, says in one of her books that all readers really want is to know the writer better, and while I quibble with that (which is my skeptical nature), when I read Jerry’s blog I admire his courage and his ability to create a sense of intimacy through his writing. In addition, I share his interest with Buddhist thought and action, and that commonality probably helps me feel connected to him. Thanks, Jerry.

And really, thanks to Brad, my funny husband, for guiding me through the blog setup process, which entailed downloading a newer version of Windows and other ugly computer stuff and patiently sitting near to me while I clicked on things that he told me not to click on. He’s a good guy.

And how do you end your first blog post? I guess I’m figuring it out as I go along, which is only what all of us are doing, all the time.

18 thoughts on “First Thought, Best Thought

  1. A Writer Starts From Scratch – Learning to Blog for the Non-Techie

    My wife Amy – who is a writer – decided she wanted to try blogging (both reading and writing). She’s intrigued by my fascination with blogging and thought it might be easier than trying to get her novel published, especially since she’d have to finish …

  2. Thanks to YOU Amy. The blogoworld (I hate the term “blogsphere”) needs more real writers. One of the big issues for me, and it’s obvious in my long-windedness, is that too many people are struggling with fairly complex thoughts and issues in too lightly and too shallow a way.
    Okay…that’s a bit too harsh. Forget judging others. For me, the process has been liberating (read especially my piece “Red Sunflowers” for my thoughts on liberation).
    I loved being a reporter and having to plow through writers’ constipation because my paycheck depended on it. (Okay, so I use the term “love” with that exquisite nostaglia available only to those who actually aren’t doing it. I actually HATED writing on deadline but I know it forced me to be able to let shit go.)
    The blog, with my self-imposed limited expectations of brilliance and glory, has been fun. Writing is fun. What a quaint thought, eh?
    Anyway, welcome…and check out Jason Chervokas who’s using the form to publish his novel.

  3. welcome to blogland! i read your husband’s blog. it is good to see he got you blogging. my fiance is a much better writer than I, and you give me hope that I’ll be able to get her blogging.

  4. To blog or not to blog
    That is the question
    Is it nobler to suffer the
    slings and arrows of illiterate posters
    Or to take up words against a sea of idiots
    and by opposing end them.
    Fare thee well.

  5. Amy – your first thought is indeed a good thought. Fear can be a crippling thing that prevents a lot of good deeds and ideas from getting much beyond the thought stage. I’m looking forward to reading more from you.

  6. Congrats on your blog-and good luck! The great think about blogging is that you can make it exactly what you want it to be.
    Jerry’s blog inspires me, as well, btw.

  7. Yet another congratulation. I just found Brad’s blog last night. I’m glad to see you both in the fray. (And it looks like you already have a huge audience. No pressure. 🙂
    Re: fear – it’s an awful thing. I’ve done a self-help type reading in the past year, and it seems to me that most blocks we have come from fear (clutter is another one – read David Allen’s “Getting Things Done” to fix that). A big a-ha for me came when I started learning about transactional analysis, popularized by “I’m OK, You’re OK” – if you haven’t read it, trust me, it’s not what you think. “The Power of Now” was another great inspiration, even though I don’t think of myself as spiritual.
    Fear is all in your head – it’s just an emotional, subjective reaction to a situation you’ve learned to be scared of, probably when you were a child.
    Of course, the challenge is how to conquer the fear, or at least make it manageable. This is where cognitive behavioralism was a big help for me, too. Here’s one trick that worked for me: wear a rubber band on your wrist for a while and snap it every time you have a negative thought. It sounds silly, but it works. I wore one for about three months last year and it did wonders. The main value is that it trains you to monitor your thoughts and, over time, change them.
    I could go on and on. (I already have.) Keep posting. I’m sure you’ll figure something out.

  8. Hi Amy
    Congratulations on your new Blog. Im a newbie to Blogs too. How are you finding Typepad as a Blog tool? Im looking to find a blog tool.
    I linked from Brad’s site. Im based in Hong Kong and was searching on VC’s Blogs. Im working on establishing a China Fund. Couldnt help but follow a link to a namesake. Originally our family emigrated from Britain to New Zealand. Ive been in HK 11 years. Appologies if somehow this type of comment is non-blog etiquette approved..*S* all the best Andrew Batchelor

  9. Amy. I too am new. Very new, just in the past couple of days. I have come to blogging at the suggestion of a friend in the VC world when I asked him for guidance about getting to know people within the industry, to try to “re-direct” my career. I don’t know exactly how I will accomplish this but so far it’s been fun. Sort of like if you were to discover a hidden cave in your backyard that you never knew was there. It is exciting and spooky to step in and see where the tunnels lead. Danger? Adventure? Friendship? Treasure? We’ll see. I think I am remembering now what it is my kids feel when they come upon an entirely new concept. Thanks for helping to inspire my first step.

  10. Hi,
    I just wanted to share information about something that has been a huge help with my Social Anxiety (has reduced it by 75% for over a year now.)
    It’s a free network of free support groups for people with Social Phobia and other Social Anxiety problems.
    **(Which by coincidence is based in Boulder, Colorado).**
    The name of the organization is– Social Phobics Anonymous
    SPAs’ web address is:
    http://www.healsocialanxiety.com
    .
    Social Phobics Anonymous (also called S.P.A.) uses a 12 step recovery approach, adapted from A.A. and O.C.A. to recover from our Social Anxiety Problems.
    In addition to the 12 steps, we also use the principles for healing fear developed by Rhonda Britton in her book “Fearless Living”.
    **S.P.A. is not opposed to other recovery approaches and a good percentage of SPAs members use our approach in combination with other therapies– like medication, behavior therapy, exposure therapy, ect with good results.

  11. Your comment about fear left an impression on me and I am now responding to it many many months later. I think both fear and anger are born out of desire. So in order to overcome fear, one must overcome desire and the way to overcome desire is to first recognize it and then elevate oneself to a higher plane/cause. All easier said than done!

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